Have you ever been in a place where you KNOW God has asked you to step out and do something that doesn't make a lot of sense? So out of love for Him you step out and do it? Thinking “there will be all this amazing fruit because I am being so obedient to Him.” Then months go by and you are not experiencing the fruit you expected? I have experienced that. (If you want a personal example look below) When your not experiencing “the fruit”, doubts may creep in, which sometimes bring thoughts of “I’m not worthy”, "I’m not good enough for this task”. I found some verses that are encouraging to chew on when this happens:
Ecclesiastes 11:5 ~ Just as you cannot understand the path of the wind or the mystery of a tiny baby growing in its mothers womb, so you cannot understand the activity of God, who does all things.
I Thessolonians 5:16-18 ~ “Always be joyful.” Never stop praying. Be thankful in all circumstances, for this is Gods will for those who belong to Christ Jesus.
Proverbs 16:9 ~ We can make our plans but the Lord determines our steps.
Once I was able to receive these words, I was able to keep going and to see the fruits with a different perspective. One in which the fruits were there the whole time, my perspective just needed to change, by trusting Gods leading in the first place.
Challenge: Has God asked you to step out into an area that is challenging? If so, after reading these verses, does your perspective change?
There was a time that I was struggling in my thoughts when the plans I KNEW God was leading me to do, were not moving quick enough, nor producing the fruit I felt was supposed to be produced. These thoughts spiraled into feeling stuck, into thoughts of I am not good enough for this plan, into wanting to give up. All these thoughts crept up on me, and my actions were to work harder toward the plans, with NO returns/fruit. (The returns/fruit, I was looking for, not Gods perspective/fruit) Once I was able to admit something as simple as: "I am disappointed and discouraged of what God has asked me to do because the result/fruit is going WAY slower than I had expected." (Like MONTHS slower) I had a good emotional releasing cry! I then read the verses above and allowed His Spirit to soak into me as I blessed myself by taking a soothing epsom salt and oils bath. As I soaked in the bath I allowed Gods Spirit to infuse me once again with hope and a renewed spirit. Allowing me to see HIS perspective/fruit.
I also realized my focus was on my circumstances and expectations of what I thought the plans would produce, which brought fear and doubt. Taking a moment to acknowledge what I was feeling, being thankful for HIS presence and leading in my life, brought those spiraling thoughts to an end. They no longer had a hold of my heart. I was able to hand them to God allowing Him to speak deep inside of me, renewing my mind to press forward to the goal HE has for me. (Even if it takes longer than I wanted)