Have you ever experienced something REALLY difficult and were able to break through? Like running. The more you run, your body responds and then all of a sudden you break through a wall and you actually want to run. It is so exhilarating! Don’t you just feel so accomplished? So much stronger when you are able to break through something that was so difficult, whether it be physical, mental, emotional or Spiritual?
I have been doing that in the area of my trust in God. My hearts desire was to be at a place where I truly heard HIS voice above ALL others! That I would have perfect pitch when it came to hearing and responding to Him.
Each step that I have been taking lately has been SO hard! Like when I started running, I wanted to give up. Somehow, I felt this nudge to not give up. There was more happening than just my running abilities.
There were times when I KNEW I heard God ask me to step. Step into something that really didn’t make sense. Then the outcome of those steps didn’t match what I thought the outcome was supposed to be! So, I doubted my ability to hear God and I felt abandoned. Then I sensed that nudge again to not give up.
After an interlude of nothing, I sensed God leading me again. This time, I told Him HE HAD to give me step by step! Well, He did, I was so impressed with all of it! Yet…again the outcome was not what I thought it was supposed to be. Again I heard the quiet voice to not give up. This time I didn’t feel abandoned. I felt disappointed and discouraged. Yay! That seemed like growth!
Okay, third time right? He gave me another task. I followed the task with gusto! I was so excited! Things fell into place! He lead every step again! Boom! Again, the outcome was NOT what I thought it was supposed to be! This time, I didn’t feel abandoned, I wasn’t disappointed, I laughed! I didn’t understand all of it. But somehow, I just KNEW He had me. I just KNEW He was doing a deeper work in me than outcomes. My perceived outcomes.
Then, He gave me a new task. This time, there was peace. There was something in me…Contentment! Not comfort. For I knew holding onto my comfort zone would not prepare me for when things in life explode! For…things have exploded a lot in my life! I realized a wall inside of me had been broken. I was able to truly see that I am WELL taken care of by my Father, My Groom, My God! I am able to hear Him! I don’t expect a certain outcome! I am content JUST to listen and do what He asks of me! And along with that contentment comes JOY and PEACE! No fear! Just contentment!
Just like when I run after breaking through that wall, I want to keep running. When something takes me out and I am unable to run, I know I will get back there. The wall will break again. So will this contentment, this faith that I have now. If something draws me away from them for a time, I know that I will be able to get back there. For, there is a well worn road I have run! And that road has taken me on some pretty amazing terrain! I may have stumbled along the way, but I am on the correct path! The view right now is amazing!
What does your path look like?
Verses to Ponder:
Proverbs 3:5-6~ Trust in the Lord with all your heart; do not depend on your own understanding. Seek his will in all you do, and he will show you which path to take.
Romans 11:53~ Oh, how great are God's riches and wisdom and knowledge! How impossible it is for us to understand His decisions and His ways!
Isaiah 49:4~ I replied, “But my work seems so useless! I have spent my strength for nothing and to no purpose. Yet I leave it all in theLord’s hand; I will trust God for my reward.”
Jeremiah 17:7~ “But blessed are those who trust in the Lord and have made the Lord their hope and confidence.