CAN I HAVE IT NOW?
Hebrews 11:39-40~All of these people (those mentioned in chapter 11 who lived by faith and suffered) we have mentioned received God's approval because of their faith, yet none of them received all that God had promised. For God had far better things in mind for us that would also benefit them, for they can't receive the prize at the end of the race until we finish the race.
I was feeling discouraged that my many efforts of doing what I wholeheartedly believed God was leading me to do wasn’t producing enough fruit as far as I could see. I mean…I was being obedient, had a joyful heart even when it was beyond my understanding. Yet, my “prize” was no where in sight.
I even went to bed one night upset with God! You know how when you are upset with someone, you kind of turn your back and do a harrumph? May not want to talk for a bit? Yeah, that was me. I KNEW He loved me, I KNEW He was there for me, I KNEW that all of this was in HIS hands and my job was just to keep moving forward as HE leads me. I still LOVED Him. Yet nothing was happening! I felt hurt by Him. So, I went to bed with that feeling. “Where was the prize?” I told Him I was hurt and didn’t want to talk.
In the morning, His presence was still graciously with me as I finished reading Deuteronomy. That is when it hit me!
Moses had endured some pretty incredible things! Back then, they didn’t have the luxury of the Holy Spirit, so, HE pretty much was anointed with Gods Spirit and the people had to listen to what Moses relayed to them from God. There were so many times they were about to be annihilated by God because of choices and whining! Then Moses would THROW Himself down between the people and God and beg Him not to do it! God would relent, but just in the nick of time from them being totally annihilated! Because of THEIR choices, THEIR doubt, they ALL had to wander in the dessert for FORTY years! WHAT? Moses! Oh man, I would have been SO mad. God promised them an amazing land flowing with milk and honey and instead, they wandered.
When it was time for them to enter, because of ONE thing Moses did, HE didn’t get to enter into the promised land! WHAT? Again…I would have been SO mad! Moses did (almost) EVERYTHING God told him to do! Yet, He didn’t get what was promised! Grrrr! (Okay…why was I getting so mad right here?)
I realized I was feeling a bit the way I assumed Moses SHOULD have felt! However, it goes on to say. God brought him up the mountain to SEE the promised land. Deuteronomy 34:7 says: Moses was 120 years old when he died, yet his eyesight was clear, and he was as strong as ever. WHAT? Wow! Yet, he died on the mountain. Vs. 6~The Lord buried him…and no one knows the exact place. Then in vs. 10~ There has never been another prophet in Israel like Moses, whom the Lord knew face to face.
Okay…Soooo…He obeyed God. He put up with a bunch of crud. He ended up doing things that weren’t a lot of fun. BUT…He saw the Lord face to face! He had deep relationship with Him. He was even buried by GOD Himself! WHAT? Okay…so, my little whininess needed a bit of a wake up call.
I was reminded by my Groom (Jesus) that I am to be thankful in ALL things. That HE is a GOOD Groom and HE WILL take care of me. When I may not know the outcome, holding onto these truths is faith! I know that at the end of my "race", I want to cross the finish line with “Mission Accomplished” written on my forehead! That even if things don’t go the way I want or understand. I CAN run my race for eternity sake. Filled with faith, love and a grateful heart.
Psalms 94:19 ~ When doubts filled my mind, your comfort gave me renewed hope and cheer.